Can I do it?

It has been a long time I never dropped by here. A lot to tell but did not know how to kick starting it. Perhaps, just let my friends out there to know my recent news first. Yes, I am having a marathon exam for 3 weeks long. It is kind of like great to have time to study for the subsequent paper. Without realizing, I was examined two papers and waiting for another killing paper next Monday. Haha…

I knew that medic’s students have finished their final today after a week nonstop examination. I really have to say, they are the brave one to gone through the exams. Enjoy yourself for the holiday, play as much as possible. What’s about me? I will still be in KTSN fighting for the subsequent paper”S”.
What’s the feeling of mine now? In fact, I am a bit down and not in mood now. The reason being the papers that have tested on me really make me felt that way… Perhaps our lecturers are new for this semester, hence past year did not help us a lot but this was what I had focused more. I did not blame anyone for this but myself because I knew that past year just a reference for me to know roughly how the paper will be tested on me.

I was shocked to look at the questions in the paper that related to something absolutely new for me. People thought I can answer the question but I could not. I just have my tried to fill in whenever that was glanced at once in the note. I did study. If you ask me, compare to last semester, which do you think you read more? I would say, “This semester”. However, I really did not know is my effort being appreciated or not. As the paper in PPM and ASM really make me to have a kind of feeling that I did not pay much effort.

I really don’t know how… How does the result will be? How am I going to face the subsequent paper? The moment I sat for the paper, I said to myself even though you did not really know the answer, write something related to it, who’s know your answer is correct. This was the least I could do for the papers that were tested because I really did not what’s more I could do for my paper. I saw a few of my friends went out the exam hall so early and I kept saying to myself- “No, you cannot leave now, stay here. I know it is hard but if you choose to leave now, I bet you will be regret later. Stay until the last minute, think and read again the paper to look for any other clues, think logically the questions and try to answer it in your own way but not following the facts in notes (*as note really have the facts and need to remember really killing me and what I do at that moment is to roughly write out the idea based on my memories).”

Yeah, I fought the papers until the last minute even though I did not really have the idea what’s I written there is correct or not. For me, I have tried my very best to finish the paper without even a single minute wasted for leaving early. In my point of view, it is not the matter of how well you answered in the exam, is the matter of “Have you done your best at the 2 hours and 30 minutes? Have you tried your best to answer?” If the answer is yes, then you will leave no regret behind you as once you stepped out from the exam hall, the controlled is no longer up to you to decide.

I grabbed the moment that I really have 100% controlled of my paper and did my best. The remaining, I left for tomorrow, but in term of courage to stay until the last minute for the paper, I praised myself- Yes, I have done it. Gambateh! Nothing is impossible if you make it possible! Just believe! I can do it! I can do it! I can do it!

~ by Willam on April 24, 2009.